The one drawback to having had a week off from work is that this morning I almost forgot how to get back there. No, seriously, I was driving down the road I’ve driven down hundreds of times and it dawned on me that I wasn’t sure where I was going. Having not had anywhere to be for the last seven days had robbed me of any sense of urgency or purpose, so I was just as likely to hang a left and get on I-4 as I was to keep going to work. I’d even zone out from time to time. Not to the point where I was about to have an accident, but I’d sort of snap back into focus and realize I’d gone several blocks without thinking. I even took the wrong entrance into the parking lot and wondered why there were so many empty spaces until I realized I was one building off. It felt somewhat surreal, almost like my first day on the job.
But I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have had this many emails on my first day. It wasn’t until about 3:30 this afternoon that I finished getting on top of everything in my inbox. Granted, a lot of it was variations on, “OMG need this now!!!” followed by, “OMG you’re not here!!!” followed by, “Don’t worry, it’s been taken care of.” It made me feel simultaneously indispensable and inconsequential to see how much people needed me and how quickly they could find someone else to do what I do. It also took a few minutes to remember how to do things that are actually pretty routine; if it wasn’t for the Undo feature, I would have accidentally deleted half my saved emails while trying to empty my Sent folder. Clearly I’m not 100% back yet.
At least this time I remembered my passwords. When I got back from my honeymoon, it took a good forty-five minutes before I could get anything done because I’d forgotten how to log in to pretty much everything. I kept having to call our help desk for, well, help, to the point where they were expecting me. It’s funny how dependent we’ve become on these arcane strings of letters and numbers that we have to make deliberately difficult to remember, only to have ourselves be the ones thwarted by them. It’s good to know our computers will be safe from ourselves.
I’m mostly caught up now, aside from a few things that require me to wait for someone to get back to me. I don’t think I’m fully back into the swing of things, but at least I know how to find my office and get to my desk. And I managed to show up to work fully dressed. I’ll take that as an accomplishment.